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Dear ,
The month of March was maybe the craziest one of the last 12 months for me , in terms of duties and workload – and all of this accompanied by a really bad flu that had knocked me out taking me nearly two weeks to recover. It was a time when I sometimes thought that I would not manage to fulfill the expectations (which were mostly the ones I had put on myself) and to keep the commitments I had made.
All this was a great learning experience for me, and I want to share it with you. And yes, these are lessons that we learn over and over again in various stages of our life, and still, they feel different every time we pass through them.
The first part was my own process: I learned that - even if we slow down, when we proceed with little steps, with what we can do in this very moment, whilst taking care of ourselves focusing on the little things – eventually, what is meant will happen. Maybe not as originally planned, but sometimes even better.
The little things for me were my husband bringing me a cup of tea and taking care of what I needed, me saying “no I am sorry, I can’t do this” and experiencing that everybody understood, that I did not have to “function as usual”.
The second part was the process that nature allowed me to follow and to observe. After nearly two weeks in the house due to fever, I could not wait to finally meet the flowers in our garden that I had observed through the window starting to bloom. To my surprise the flowers had blossomed in places different from where I had planted new bulbs last year. None of them were in the places where I expected them to be.
At first, I was a bit surprised, but then I understood the beautiful message that nature was giving me as a reminder.
“Not everything shows up as you had planned it, but everything shows up in a way that is right and meant to be. Trust the process.”
Although I know this very well and even teach it, somehow in these crazy last months of exhaustion, new plans and projects, and trying to give my best to everybody, I seemed to have forgotten about it.
The moment I remembered: “Yes, we make plans, we plant seeds in a certain place, but then they might bloom where we did not expect them to”, things started to fall into place.
Some plans were postponed to September, like the next basic training, which gives me time for creative restructuring. Some plans were disrupted due to unforeseen circumstances, like a workshop in Paris, which allowed me to accept an unexpected invitation to visit Cluj-Napoca again in May, something I am very much looking forward to.
These are just two examples of how smoothly changes can happen and open up new doors when we trust the process and most of all, when we listen to our body and to what we need.
I know that not everyone has that opportunity to create space for such changes in daily life, but sometimes shifting our own inner posture and perspective to what is going on can support us and – who knows – sometimes even create miracles.
May the month of April allow you to more and more learn to trust in the process of life.
In the spirit of love and reconciliation
Ursula |
