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Dear ,
Reflecting on this past month, the many people I talked with and my personal experiences, I can say that almost everyone has gone through (or is still in the midst of) a time of deep inner (and sometimes also outer) transformation.
This process can make you feel as if doors are closing – behind you, or even in front of you. And it was interesting to observe how different people (me included) react to these experiences.
Some people throw themselves against these doors, trying to kick them in. They push, plead, try everything. Others step back and ask themselves: "What did I do wrong? Why did this happen to me?" They might blame themselves or wait for an answer that never comes. Both responses are painful, leaving us with doubt, frustration, and grief.
Although I have gone through these experiences several times in my life, I am still always in awe of what happens when we choose a third way: when we simply acknowledge the closure, take a deep breath, and look around to see what else might be there. The moment we trust that our heart and soul understand long before our mind is able to catch up, the pain loosens its grip and is replaced by something else. Excitement, curiosity, and the image of a new door opening before us, inviting us to cross its threshold.
Maybe we do not dare to start walking yet, maybe we are still a bit scared, maybe it is difficult to believe that something new is happening. But eventually, we realize that we are already on this new path. It might have been building quietly for months, and we were so focused on holding on to the old that we did not pay attention to the signs of the new.
Some weeks ago, I was going through such a process. Pain and disappointment were real, and I allowed myself to feel them, giving them the space they needed. Then, all of a sudden, I had a realization: what I felt so intensely was like the last labor pain before giving birth. That final, intense push before new life enters the world.
I realized that every change, especially the ones that have been waiting for us and we might have resisted, is like the start of a new life asking to be born through us – real, alive, and full of possibilities.
When a child is born, a door closes. The child cannot go back to the womb, and the mother cannot go back to who she was before. However, at the same time, when the mother says a wholehearted "Yes" to this new life and crosses the threshold of the new door with gratitude, love, and curiosity, something new can emerge — something unique that only these two can bring into the world.
Perhaps it is no different with our creative children, our calling, or the purpose we are here to embody. Every time we say "yes" to what wants to be born through us, we leave something behind—and step into a life that did not exist before.
Doors close. That's certain. What we choose to do in the space after — that's where the story is actually written.
May the month of July allow you to say "Yes" to what is emerging in the unknown.
In the spirit of love and reconciliation
Ursula
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